Thursday, October 29, 2009

Today I turn 30. I have spent the last week or so trying to figure out if this bothers me or not, I have deceided that, no I guess it doesn't. There are a few positive things about it, when I get on the treadmill, I dont have to arrow down as long to get to my age, it is faster to say 30 than 29 (try it, its true) and well I am still here period.
It has been a nice birthday thus far (besides being in pain due to the crappy weather) my cube was decorated, I got nice cards and we are having lunch at the office.
Saturday we will have a family get to-gether.
So Happy Birthday to Me.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Monday Again

The weekend is over and Monday is here again. So far so good.
The weekend was a good one. Friday and Saturday were good family days and we had alot of fun. Although Saturday was a bit chilly we did go the Merry Go Round, had 3 rides and than went to Barnes N Nobles.
Sunday was a day I was both looking forward to and dreading at the same time. Excited because I was going to a good friends babyshower, dreading because I had to do some driving. Let me explain, I have not driven any distance since the accident in July. In that accident I was driving my in-laws car and wrecked it a bit, I was going to be driving their car to TN, understand my nerves? The plan was I was going to drive to TN and my father (shower was co-ed) was going to drive us to Murfreesboro.
Well I could not have asked for a better driving day. It was clear and bright and the traffic was light. I had the entertainment of Simon and Garfunkel and I un-nerved a bit. Although when I got to my folks my legs were shaking badly. But I made it!
We headed to the shower and it was fun. I have never seen someone get as much stuff as they did. That kid will be set until she is a year at least....We were there for about 2 hours and they opened gifts the entire time!! Good for them!!
Than came the trip back to AL. Well I had the whole day to get re-terrified. It was a bit busier and there were lots of big trucks and it was getting dark. Lets just say when I delivered the car back I was telling myself I was never going to drive again. But I will....although I hate driving now and I do not really enjoy being a passanger either. Hopefully I will get over this soon.
All in all the weekend was great and hopefully the week will follow suite!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Friday Fill-Ins

I have been so exhausted this week I am very happy to see Friday arrive!!

1. The crickets sing, a sound I had to get re-used to.
2. Create your own fun wherever you are.
3. I want to get far away from the people who are hazardous to my mental health.
4. I was freezing my feet off in the good ole Pacific ocean again; this was a dream.
5. But as for me, I could give a crap about all the material things in life, but am so excited about my night at the Weston.
6. Love is where I come from
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging out with O, tomorrow my plans include going to the Merry-Go-Round if the weather is nice and Sunday, I want to go to my friends baby shower!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

A Belated Birthday Post

I cannot believe I have not blogged about this sooner, on Monday to be exact. Monday little O turned 3. It seems like just yesterday we were bringing her home from the hospital, not having a clue as to what we were doing. Terrified, terrified to pick her up because of her wobbly head, terrified to put her down, terrified she was too hot or too cold, terrified she was not eating enough, terrified of failure, terrified we would never sleep again. But alas, we made it and she made it, and if I do say so myself she is a pretty amazing little girl. Funny, sweet, and stinking smart.
So Saturday we had a birthday party. A small one with just family, very fun and relaxing. Of course there were only 3 things on O's mind, presents, cake, and pianta'. She got lots of cool gifts that later were spread all over the living room floor (I cannot even imagine Christmas). The pianta' was Nemo and he was stuffed with a wide varity of items (had to make a quick trip to Publix due to a mishap where the real stuffing items were accidently taken to the dumpster and compressed). It was very cute to see her wacking that fish and in the end it was her mother who broke that sucker open. It was a good day and she slept wonderfully that night.
Sunday the 3 of us went to ride the Merry Go Round a million times and took a trip to her favorite place-Barnes N Noble.
So Happy Birthday to my darling O. I pray that you keep that sweetness to you through your teenage years.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Pity Party Time

Is there always something wrong with everybody? Because there is always something wrong with me, and to be honest with you I am just tired of it. If I am not tired, my legs hurt, if my legs don’t hurt, my stomach hurts, if my stomach doesn’t hurt,my head hurts, if my head doesn’t hurt than my hips do…you get my point. It is tiring to say the least. After a particulary bad day yesterday, I am feeling sorry for myself. According to my mother I am only allowed these days every so often, so I thought today I was due for one.
Here I am 29 (okay almost 30) and yes it makes me mad that on most days I walk with a limp or am so tired it takes everything in me to keep my eyes open. It makes me mad that I once could exercise, I mean really exercise, and not just walk or lift 3 pound weights. It makes me mad that I have to have a shot every other day, and they hurt and leave brusies. It makes me mad that the stack of medical bills I have just have to remain unpaid right now. It just makes me mad that I have MS period.
And yes I do know that things could be a lot worse. I know this, I recognize this and I am gratefull that they are not, but to ME right now things seem pretty bad. While I do not have some diesease that is going to kill me, just makes my overall quality of life more poor. That’s pretty bad isn’ t it?
So yes on days I do feel sorry for myself, and you 3 readers are getting the brunt of it at the moment. Tomorrow I will have my happy face on, but for now it is all frowns baby.